Christmas

December 26, 2010

This was a very hard holiday. It started out for me and the girls at my Moms house like it has every year for the past 10 years. We go over there and have an awesome dinner of steak, shrimp and crab legs with all the trimmings. I was having a really hard time because every year Rory has blessed the food and as we got ready to eat my Mom asked me to do it this year. As I stood there struggling to gain my composure I cracked and asked RaceaJade to say it instead. From that point on it was hard for me to even be at my Moms house.

Digital camera

Cute pillow pet

Fun book

I tryed my best to pull it together for the girls sake and we had a fun time opening presents. Once it was late and everything was opened and cleaned up I brought the girls home and put them to bed. I thought my Moms house was bad but playing Santa by myself was excruciating. I was blessed to have some awesome boys set up the new trampoline in the back yard while we were gone so I didn't have to worry about that. But as I filled stocking and wrapped gifts the emptiness was overwhelming. On some of the gift tags to the girls I wrote "From Mom and Dad". Later Race asked me why I did that and I told her that "if it wasn't for Daddys love for us we wouldn't have these nice things, he is still taking care of us".

Santa has arrived

After everything was done and ready for the morning I settled into bed with my 3 girls and cryed myself to sleep.

3 angels disguised as my girls

Christmas morning was okay, the girls enjoyed opening there gifts. Rory and I always had a rule that the girls only get 3 gift each from us and I continued that tradition. Thanks to our amazing families and friends like Fat Head and Holly the girls had plenty of great gifts.

Our tree

1 of 4 babys Kyrri got

Ty's Leapster

Races new ipod

Mom helping Kyrri

After the girls and I opened all our presents, cleaned up, and got dressed we headed over to Wendys like we have every year. This too was a very hard thing to do and the sad feeling was very strong but everyone was trying to do there best for the kids sake. After eating our traditional breakfast of monkey bread and fruit we opened gifts and had a good time.

KyrriJo's new baby "Chucky"

TyLee's new Tangled dolls

RaceaJades new DS game & clothes

At noon my Mom and Race took off for Montana so they could go get Race's new horse Roxy. They would be gone a week and I was very tempted to go but declined. After they left Jake, Ty, Kyrri, and I went to the cemetery, and then to Luna. After that we just cruised around the mountain in my new truck. It was a good Christmas but hard holiday to get through. I was glad when it was over. Throughout the day I kept thinking of past Christmases especially last years and I couldn't get over how Kyrri's first was Rory's last.

Their only Christmas together- 2009

I feel that we 4 girls are definantly stonger now that we have gotten past our 1st Christmas without the man in our lives. We know that we will be with him again and until then he would want us to go on and live happy lives and that is what we plan on doing, no matter how hard it may be!